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When Life Rains on You, Find the Rainbow

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By, Crystal S. Kauffman

Sometimes, life can seem like it does nothing but rain on you, whether it is your finances or your health. It will seem like a damn hurricane is brewing and your holding on for dear life. However, look past the blinding rain and you will see a beautiful rainbow forming in the distance. Stay focused on that rainbow and don’t give up! Each tiresome step will bring you so much closer to the goal that you have set for yourself.

Never let anyone tell you that you are weak or that you are giving up, because you are not doing things the way that they think you should. Honestly, they cannot see what you see, so keep your eyes wide open and keep focused on saving money or changing the way you eat. Whatever your goal is…go at it hard no matter how much rain comes at you because that rainbow is forming. So, focus and dig deep, because you can do anything that you have set your mind too!

Keep your eyes on the goal or rainbow that is ahead of you, but always be aware of distractions which will try to pull you away from your original goal. More rain will enter your life and you will feel defeated; yet don’t lose heart over the setbacks that you will definitely face. Instead, refocus and find that rainbow once again and keep striving to reach it. Before you know it, you will have reached your goal and the rain will have moved while leaving beautiful flowers in its path.


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Find Your True Purpose

By, Crystal S. Kauffman

Never expect someone to tell you your true purpose in life, because it will never be that simple to find out what you were meant to do or be. It will take a lot of soul-searching to find out what brings out your own desires or passions. Follow things that inspire you that will allow you to create the life that you want, while also showing you yearn to become in the future. Sometimes, you may take a wrong turn or even five, but remember don’t give up on yourself!

Your true destiny is waiting for you to discover it, while you are building your life the way you want it. Take your time figuring out what your purpose is in life, because you don’t want to start doing something that you will end up hating later in life. This will allow you to find and prepare yourself for the purpose that you believe that is tailor made for you and your dreams. Furthermore, allow yourself to dream big and discover what you love to do or be with.

When you find your passion and purpose, you will find a more peaceful existence that will allow you to be excited about your future prospects. You will have your ups and downs, soon you will become someone who is fighting ti reach your full potential. Know who you are and what your passions are, will ultimately lead you in the direction that is best for you. So dig deep and begin finding out your purpose, instead of wasting your time on things that do help find your passions and desires.

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Don’t Bleed On Your Loved Ones


By, Crystal S. Kauffman

Don’t hurt others, just because someone hurt you in the past and you are still in emotional pain. Take time to heal yourself, so you can be emotionally available for the people who are in your life. Sometimes, we carry our emotional baggage into new relationships and friendships. This causes issues in the long run, because you end up bleeding all over the people that never hurt you.

You become bitter, grumpy, angry, unhappy, and just plain miserable which causes others to walk on egg shells around you on most days. This is not fair to those who love you, because they deserve more than your hurtful words and actions. Seek professional help, so you can spare your loved ones from your emotional pain bleeding out onto them.

No one can help you with your dance with anger or your emotional baggage. Only you can put a stop to those emotions, which are bleeding out daily. With proper help, you will have a breakthrough and learn to cope with the emotional pain that you carry with you daily. Your family will enjoy the new and improved you, but you will enjoy your new found peace.

Without getting help, you will push everyone away, because you’re allowing your painful past affect your future. Leave your pain in the past and find positive things to fill your life with. Never use a band-aid to cover a deep cut, because you will bleed out on those who you love. Never give up on creating a better you, since everyone in your life deserves to see you happy not angry.

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Control Your Own Life

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By, Crystal S. Kauffman

During recovery or even in everyday life, you are going to learn quickly that you will only able to control your own situations and circumstances. Honestly, you cannot control the way anyone else chooses to treat you. You can choose to stay away from any person, who hurts you and does not change their behavior once you have discussed the issue. Save your energy and stay away from the craziness, while focusing on the positive things in your life that make you happy.

Controlling when people come to your home, work, or other places that you go can keep your anxiety level down. However, you can also tell visitors to text or call you before a visit, so you can decide if you want to actually have a visitor over at that time. Sometimes, you may just want to be alone because you feel grouchy and full of anxiety. Setting rules with your visitors will help you regain control over your life, while you focus on healing and meditation.

Furthermore, talk to a mentor on how to control your finances if you need help, because you will need to pay rent and electricity in a stable home. You may also have to pay for water, propane, and/or other necessities inside your home. Learning to control your finances will make you proud and give you a sense of freedom that is amazing after dealing with addiction. Therefore, take control of your finances and your life, so you can find the peace and happiness that you long for everyday.

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Change That Negative Energy…

By, Crystal S. Kauffman

Sometimes, you don’t know how a certain situation is going to turn out, however you can begin preparing yourself mentally to face even the toughest of times. You can plan for it or just wing it, but sometimes nothing ever goes the way you need it too. People will doubt you, misjudge you, and even turn their back on you for whatever reason they choose too. No matter what happens, do not ever give up on yourself and keep your head up always…no matter what!

Only you can change your circumstances by remaining strong and having a positive attitude, even when the bullshit just keeps coming your way. Keep your head up and push all the negative things out of your life that gives you positive energy. Start by create a clean and peaceful environment for you to come home to whenever the outside world becomes to heavy on your soul or mind. Then, begin learning how to remove negative energy from your life, so you will learn to face life’s issues with confidence instead of confusion.

However, you must learn to build positive energy, while feeding your mind uplifting or inspirational words that fill your soul. Never allow anyone to talk down to you or disrespect you, since this will cause you to begin doubting the progress you have made so far. Finally, always meditate and pray before leaving your calm environment, so you can prepare your yourself spiritually for the issues you may face throughout your day!

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Build A Life That You Love

By, Crystal S. Kauffman

Changing your life can be extremely difficult with the many different temptations around you. Most of the time, you are far away from the temptation, but sometimes it can be right in your face. This temptation can actually be in the form of a person, who just happened to dropped by to visit you after months or years of not communicating.

Right then, you must decide how you will handle this blast from your past. Will you choose the easy way out, which is to give into temptation? However, you could also visit for a few moments and then politely excuse yourself from the nerve racking situation. Only, you can choose what you will do when you face certain daily temptations.

Be sure to keep your support system on speed dial, because giving in to temptation is not worth the amount of guilt that you will face after your relapse. Stay completely away from circumstances and situations that will challenge your strength, while adding new things that completely inspire you. Start by creating a life that makes it easier for you to remain sober, because you are doing things that you enjoy despite the degree of temptation.

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Temptation Moved In Next Store

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By, Imogen Rayne

Two months ago, temptation literally moved in next store to me. I became anxious and worried about my own path to recovery as an recovering addict. I have over two years clean from an addiction to Crack cocaine. I didn’t use regularly, but I fell too many times into an addiction trying to beat an addiction to opiates.

First of all, I became angry to see the dealer pull up to his house. Then, I got even angrier when he borrowed something from me and it didn’t matter what it was. Honestly, I never really fought the urge to use that drug again, but I fought the urge to not feel the pain that I feel ever since my cancer treatment within my stomach, back, and legs.

I am so proud of myself, because I was able to truly overcome the devil and keep moving forward in my own recovery and my life. For a moment, I did become weak and I immediately leaned on my support system. They each guided me in the steps to take daily as this drug is displayed in my face on a regular basis.

Most of all, I am praying for the addict, which is all I can do to be honest. I am damn proud of myself for continuing to rock sobriety, even when others thought I would not make it in my sober journey. Additionally, I have had a stable home for nine months and I have worked hard to make amends with my family and friends.

If you are rocking sobriety, give me a “Hell yeah” in the comments!

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